Yearly Archives: 2025

Moving always brings weird emotions. You’re excited about what’s ahead, but melancholy about what you’re leaving behind. Change is strange.

I’m going to miss our little life here. Our tiny apartment where our family began. The easy walk to everywhere – work, church, the store, the pharmacy, transit, the park. The nostalgia down at the hospital complex where Bun was born and our life changed forever in the best.way.literally.possible. Gluten-free donuts. The familiarity and knowledge of our neighborhood, where the good coffee shop is, the three places I can eat, which paths get you to the zoo the fastest, the skyline and the sunset behind the skyscrapers. The roadmap of the grocery stored. The street noise – sentimental, yeah, but it’s been the background track of my life for a long time.

I’m going to miss our church family, dearly. It’s incredibly comforting to have a place where you know just about

We are preparing to leave the city, and it’s surreal. I have packed boxes, sorted through mementos and winter coats and baby clothes and kitchen utensils and all the other things one does when moving. I have gone from a young woman eager for her next adventure in college to a graduate with a dream job to a honeymooning newlywed to a first-time mom while living among these skyscrapers and trains. I have done over a decade of life with the traffic and sirens in the background, a weird soundtrack but one that became mine. I wrestled with some of the toughest questions I’ve had, been angry at God, rejoiced deeper than I’ve ever had, learned hard things, and grew strong roots in Christ here.

Bunny Baby is a little over eight months old, and her face is changing – lengthening, looking more like a toddler, becoming less and less of

It’s the afternoon of Easter Sunday, and I nursed you to help you calm down to sleep. You rested your head on me so gently and have the most perfect, squishy, trusting face. You know you are loved and cuddled and safe with mommy. I love you so much my heart is bursting. I marvel at your smallness, I rejoice in your existence. I am in awe of all your tiny pieces and parts. I delight in your smile and hurt when you’re sad. I want to hold you in my arms forever. I want mommy to always be comforting and safe. You are my sunshine, my bunny sunshine. I praise Jesus for every moment with you and thank him every day that we can be together. Thank you Jesus for new life physically and spiritually, that death is dead and love has won, that we can have hope and joy

We are approaching your five month birthday. You are my joy, Bunny. I wish I had hours to just stare into your face and smile together and laugh and play. We do this all the time but I always wish I had more. I love you, sweet girl. You are so expressive and noisy these days, learning about your voice and all the sounds you can make. Shrieking, growling, and rawring are my favorites! You wake up twice a night now, sometimes three (RIP) since you started this sleep regression a few weeks ago. The Lord helps me and sustains us. I actually feel pretty okay most of the time, usually a tired spell in the later afternoon around 3pm but pretty energized and able to manage most days. I’ve had some aches and pains here and there as you’ve gotten bigger – headaches, shoulder tension for a few days