Yearly Archives: 2025

Things God Has Taught Me: Motherhood Edition 1

I was pushing Bun’s stroller down the street, walking with a friend, when she asked me a great question: “What has God taught you since becoming a mom?”

OH, so many things. Recording them here while I have the time.

I need Jesus. All the time. More than I ever thought.

Motherhood is brutally humbling. It’s not about maxing out or reaching your capacity; it’s about falling on the ground with your capacity broken. It’s about crying out to the Lord that you can’t do it anymore, that you’re overwhelmed and you can’t do it. And He gives you your daily bread to keep going. He brings you through. He enables you to do it, one hour and sometimes even just one minute at a time to love and care for this precious little person He has brought into your life.

God loves us through His people.

When I was blearily stumbling through the early

Things God Has Taught Me: Motherhood Edition 12025-07-09T02:50:31+00:00

Thank you, Lord.

Thank you, Lord Jesus, for all these beautiful days with Bunny together. For our sweet mornings when I turn off her fans and sing The Good Morning to You song and she’s so happy to be alive. For playing on the floor together and looking at books. For her little laughs when I blow kisses at her. How excited she gets when I take her clothes off her bath time. How she smiles when she sees Daddy. How she kicks and wiggles and bats at her little friends when she’s in her bouncer seat. How serious she is and curious when seeing new people and being in new environments. How much she loves crunchy paper and toys that make noise. Her beautiful round blossom peach face and beautiful blue eyes and beautiful smile and happy happy grin. Her tiny hands and tiny toes and her big fat belly and
Thank you, Lord.2025-06-20T15:56:02+00:00

Mom thoughts: Easter

It’s the afternoon of Easter Sunday, and I nursed you to help you calm down to sleep. You rested your head on me so gently and have the most perfect, squishy, trusting face. You know you are loved and cuddled and safe with mommy. I love you so much my heart is bursting. I marvel at your smallness, I rejoice in your existence. I am in awe of all your tiny pieces and parts. I delight in your smile and hurt when you’re sad. I want to hold you in my arms forever. I want mommy to always be comforting and safe. You are my sunshine, my bunny sunshine. I praise Jesus for every moment with you and thank him every day that we can be together. Thank you Jesus for new life physically and spiritually, that death is dead and love has won, that we can have hope and joy

Mom thoughts: Easter2025-06-20T15:54:26+00:00

Mom thoughts: five months

We are approaching your five month birthday. You are my joy, Bunny. I wish I had hours to just stare into your face and smile together and laugh and play. We do this all the time but I always wish I had more. I love you, sweet girl. You are so expressive and noisy these days, learning about your voice and all the sounds you can make. Shrieking, growling, and rawring are my favorites! You wake up twice a night now, sometimes three (RIP) since you started this sleep regression a few weeks ago. The Lord helps me and sustains us. I actually feel pretty okay most of the time, usually a tired spell in the later afternoon around 3pm but pretty energized and able to manage most days. I’ve had some aches and pains here and there as you’ve gotten bigger – headaches, shoulder tension for a few days

Mom thoughts: five months2025-06-20T15:53:52+00:00

Mom thoughts: six months

Dear Bunny,

How is it that I am now the mother of a 6-month-old? I’m currently lying on the floor doing my stretches because I have sciatica. I’ve had a bad flare up since you were about 4 and 1/2 months old. It’s been coming and going, and physical therapy helps, but it’s very obnoxious and at times very painful. You have really pushed me to my limits in so many ways, Bunny girl. At times, I think my heart will explode with how much I love you and how I long to be with you all the time. I miss you when you’re asleep. I look at pictures and videos of you when you are napping and at night time. I love you so so so much little one. You’ve changed my life in the best way possible and I am eternally grateful that God has given you
Mom thoughts: six months2025-06-20T15:46:16+00:00

For all you new moms: thoughts

Dear friend!

 

I am SO TREMENDOUSLY excited for you. Becoming a mom is an amazing experience, a joy I can’t articulate. Motherhood is the greatest blessing I have literally ever experienced in my entire life. It has been so hard (especially the beginning) and the most challenging thing I have ever experienced too. I feel like becoming a mom deepens your love, your heart, your walk with Jesus in ways you can’t even imagine. I was in the process of collecting my thoughts about everything and wanted to send you some encouragement and wisdom. Totally take it or leave it – just wanted to share with you and literally zero.pressure.at.all. My sister-in-law sent me something similar when I was pregnant and it was really encouraging to me.

 

Please please please reach out to me any time. I want to be available to encourage you, pray for

For all you new moms: thoughts2025-04-18T14:36:33+00:00

New mom thoughts: 4/7/25

Oh my love, here we are on April 7th and time is flying. You are so big and fun and sweet…four months have exploded and I can’t believe you used to be so small you could fit on my chest like a little like bean. And now you are lying over my shoulder napping and we are rocking in our chair together. You are my joy. Your chubby thighs and little fingers and beautiful blue eyes and rosy cheeks are my favorite things in the entire world. My heart is desperately full of love and an anxious need to protect you from everything. I want to be able to hold you forever. You are my squishy bunny baby.
I never understood until now how mothers could and do feel about their babies. My life truly feels like it can be divided into two parts, before and after having
New mom thoughts: 4/7/252025-04-18T14:28:01+00:00

New mom thoughts: 12/31/24

It’s early in the morning on New Year’s Eve and I’m sitting here nursing my treasure,  My sweet baby girl. The past 3 weeks have been an absolute blur, The hardest of my entire life. I have never given more of myself. I have never felt more spent and exhausted. I have struggled emotionally and physically. I have felt so alone.
I know that I’m going to get through this. I know that it doesn’t last forever and that I will look back on these times and miss them. She is so little. So uncomplicated. So loved and she doesn’t even know it yet!   I know the Lord is with us. I feel sometimes like I am drowning. I feel like I am in a blanket of anxiety and trapped. Having a baby can make you feel claustrophobic and desperate. It’s mostly just the lack of sleep talking
New mom thoughts: 12/31/242025-04-18T14:26:59+00:00