Proper Lives Lived

September 26th, 2016|

“‘Dear God,’ she prayed, ‘let me be something every minute of every hour of my life.’” —Betty Smith, A Tree Grows in Brooklyn     Her parents started a major missions organization that impacts thousands

Proper Goodbyes

September 12th, 2016|

Tears welled up in his eyes and his throat closed shut and he creaked out the words between swallows. "I don't want to write a book...I don't need a big church...if you guys email me

Kitchen Table and Expectations

August 20th, 2016|

I'm sitting at the breakfast bar in my parents' kitchen. It's 9:30pm and I'm knocking back coconut chocolate chip cookies fresh out of the oven, courtesy of my mom and her practical love. I'm thinking

Please Get Me a Bigger Box

July 28th, 2016|

I've recently noticed that I have a natural aversion to things I cannot figure out, pin down, hammer out. It stresses me out if I cannot put something  in a box; life is so complex,

Please Rescue Me from my Mind Palace

July 25th, 2016|

The black hole of my mind. I can spend hours pondering my future, internalizing anxiety and trying to over-analyze my heart's current state. I can become absorbed in replaying memories, following threads into tomorrow, running

A Snicket in Time

June 29th, 2016|

Motto for the summer, courtesy of a fictional children's hero: "Get scared later." I have been blessedly led to an internship in The Suburbs. I have been working with H the Women's Ministry Director. I

Small Escalator to the Dungeon

June 13th, 2016|

Orlando. Jane Doe, the survivor of the Stanford rape case. I read their words today. The world is broken, suffering, a slew of one-after-the-others. ISIS. Another Ebola outbreak. Another mass shooting at a high school.

Formica Counter-ing Culture

May 30th, 2016|

"Above all else, guard your heart,     for everything you do flows from it."   -King Solomon. Prov 4:23. I grew up in the mid-2000s, hyper-purity youth group culture of Christianity. Youth group emphasized saving yourself

Broken Batteries

April 30th, 2016|

"I've been told I'm just a body." "I struggle feeling like I'm too broken for God to actually use me." "I think God sees me as a piece of dirt." "I look so ugly unless