Sitting in the campus coffee shop with Corbin the Class President and studying for final exams is a strange deal. As I reflect on the ending of Year 2 and rain flops into the plaza, I’m reminded again of how time always flies too fast.

You blink, and it’s gone.

I’ve got several topics swirling around my mind: how we systematize too much, beauty as gift, intercessory prayer, motivations, grad school, frappuccinos. I’m thinking how adult I don’t feel even though I’m halfway done with Bible college and taking on more responsibility every moment. I’m memorizing the facial expressions and vocal inflections of those who are moving on. I’m praying that I may know Christ more each day.

Sometimes, I feel like this is a joke, or like I’m still 10 years old and will wake up in my pink Barbie nightgown one of these days to my dad making cinnamon raisin toast. There are times I’m lying in my bed here in Chicago and ask myself, “How on earth did I get here?” It makes me feel incredibly old — knowing so much biblical information, standing amazed at the foot of the Cross, learning in such an odd community of saints, experiencing life when I’m not looking for it.

Strange times.

I’m on the brink of summer and it’s more peaceful than last year, knowing what I’m going home to this time around, but it’s still a transition that I have to fall into. God remains faithful.

With a week of exams left before me, I trust continually in Christ, for I am united in and with him. He is my Great Shepherd, and no matter what I face, he is faithful to equip me with all I need.

“Now may the God of peace, who through the blood of the eternal covenant brought back from the dead our Lord Jesus, that great Shepherd of the sheep, equip you with everything good for doing his will, and may he work in us what is pleasing to him, through Jesus Christ, to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen.” Hebrews 13:20-21 is certainly hitting home. 

He will keep on equipping me for what is ahead. I have seen the Lord work, and I know he will continue to do so. I humbly submit.